Monologue

New blog, new post, new life, new heart [that's a lie, but who really, really cares?].

If you can't hear my heartbeat, you can't feel what i feel, you can't sense what's behind what i say. You don't know the truth, you just can imagine it. But now i'm too far away, and i'm not going to tell you wether you're right or not. You don't feel me anymore, at all. And i just don't know how i feel about you, because everything seems so unreal, so far, so in the past. You are nobody right now to me. I know you don't miss me either, i sometimes still do. You know, there are some things that i just can't control, and this is one. Today i haven't missed you. Tomorrow i don't know, it may change. Perhaps tomorrow i'll still love you, perhaps tomorrow i'll hate you, i don't really know and i don't really care. Because we've lost each other. It was destined, i guess...
So, even though there's nothing else to say about you, i keep saying things. And I know i'm going to say a lot more. I just want to leave you behind, where you belong, to my past.